ARE MY PARENTS TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK MAD?

Hi everyone well basically its a loong story im 21years old going tobe 22 in oct ans im half paki half english i was born in london but i come to breaking point i have actually liturally gone man.Ive had enough they dont allow me out of the house by myself and they told me if you want to go out you only have to go out with us or your brothere sister im trapped.I cnt even go to the corner shop without going with sum1.And if i go out with my sister then we have to be bak at 45 max.And if i come bak late say 8 or 9 i get beaten up or threatened at home that you are a ***** no one will marry you and if u come bak late u can pack your bags and leave.Recently i had run away twice from my home and i didnt tell them and they called the police and they said im acting immature and maybe i got a phycological problem but i dont why doesnt anyone understand the only reason why i do this is becuase i cant taki living at home jst being stk watching tv whole day i mean i also feel like going out clubs cinemas with frnds here and there but i cant i have to take my parents or bro and sis.I also love my bf soo much that i havnt met him in 1mnth becuase my parents r not allowing me to go anywhere and he liturally begs me him to see him now.Every night we talk 12 till 5 in da morin on webcam thats how much we miss eachother i loove him soo much all ican do is just cry.He was meant to meet me today and 2clk and i told him ill *** and now my dads not letting me go no where and hes probally waiting there 4 me and i dnt even have a phone to contact him.They tell me is cz they dont trust me but look im young ok ive had bfs in the past ive messed around snuk out to go parties but im young we all do mistakes like this and hes cought me out having bfs so what does that mean im a ***** im a no it doesnt.I get slapped beaten up if i dnt listen my brother calls me a looser.My sister acts like a fuking child shes 20 and if u ask her to help u with something she starts crying or she tells my dad everything cz she a little kid.Im really missing my bf i loove him soo mch i dont want to leave him i dont but how cn he be wid me if i never meet him.I just want to move out but they r not letting me cz ill be discrased in the family.I really need help on what to do i dont want to live this life i mean does anyone think im right or wrong??